"I will praise the one who's chosen me, to carry you"
-Selah: I will carry you

Sunday, 23 June 2013

midnight terrors from The Pit

What if.....what if i am one of those women who just cannot carry to term? What if God is preventing me from conceiving again in order to spare me the agony of losing another one? What if this is it, that's how my prayers are answered? What if i don't get to be a mum? That thought is agony of its own.

1 comment:

  1. Like you, I still believe. I call it "faith by my fingertips". Is it worth the effort? I have to believe so, most days. But that doesn't stop the anger or the anguish. I want to find comfort but I cannot blindly accept and the answers to the questions don't make sense to me yet either - I'm uncertain whether they ever will.